April 2008 Archives

Just 4 Fun
By Trevor on April 30, 2008 12:54 PM | No Comments

My Chicago beau took this shot of me as we were laying on a bench by the river at the University of Michigan Arboretum. Ahhhh.... memories :)

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A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Bathroom
By Trevor on April 30, 2008 12:15 PM | 2 Comments

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So I was just waking up this morning -- well, almost afternoon in all fairness -- when my cell phone started rattling. I picked up the phone to see that it was a "Private" listing. *Groan* - who the fuck is calling me when I still have sand in my eyes! Against my better judgment, I decided to actually answer the phone just before it went to voicemail. I pick up and a man with an Indian accent asks "Can I speak to Trevor Hop (sic) please?" Everyone always mispronounces my last name (it's actually pronounced like happy, but with an "o"). "This is Bob calling from the San Francisco Department of Public Health."

Oh lord. I knew what this was all about immediately. I was in San Francisco in March and I visited MAGNET, the free gay men's health clinic in the Castro. I make a point to go when I visit because they offer rapid HIV testing and oral/anal STI testing -- something that is very tricky to find in the State of Michigan (in fact, there is only one place in the entire state to get rapid testing, and it's about an hour away from Ann Arbor). When I last visited, I tested positive for chlamydia, which does of course happen from time to time.

The man on the phone continues, "I've been trying to reach you for weeks now, have you not received any of my letters?" I informed him that I had not because I now live in Michigan, and that they had probably gone to my old apartment in San Francisco. "Ohhhh! That makes sense now. I went to your apartment last week with medicine and everything." I was amazed! Bob had actually gone to my old apartment in the Castro to deliver me meds because he thought I hadn't gotten treatment. How effing cute is that! And super impressive.

I informed Bob that, upon my return to Michigan, I had quickly sought out treatment from my doctor here. Our business was done. But I'm really quite shocked and pleased to hear that DPH there is so committed to making sure guys are getting access to treatment for STIs. Although, I would think that you would call someone before showing up at their apartment. I don't think they ever called me; if they did, they didn't leave a voicemail. But nonetheless, impressive stuff!

Coping with Wine & Trivial Pursuit
By Trevor on April 29, 2008 2:29 AM | No Comments

With my new flame now safely back in Chicago, I needed a fun night with the guys to recover. So I broke out my "Trivial Pursuit: 80's Edition" to kickstart a lovely evening of fun that brought us to Vinology (Ann Arbor's pretentious wine bar) and then to Aut Bar (Ann Arbor's finest / only gay bar) for drinks and revelry. A few photos for your pleasure:


Maxime / Andre / Nat, at play


Bottoms up!


Me @ Aut Bar

I'm So Excited (And I Just Can't Hide It)
By Trevor on April 28, 2008 6:18 PM | No Comments

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What a weekend! I met a boy last weekend while I was in Chicago -- another graduate student at a University down there -- and after hitting it off and sweet-talking each other's ear off this week, he agreed to drive up to Ann Arbor this weekend to hang out. And hang out we did! What a sweet, caring, intelligent, and super-sexy guy I've found! He's totally amazing. Cute. Political. Nerdy. A real catch :) And yes, that's right, I can say without hesitation now that I have a *boyfriend*. Holy canoli!

To perhaps give some hope to all you Internet-trolling guys out there (like me!), we actually met on Craigslist. Yes, you heard correctly! After my friend Spencer who I was staying with in Chicago left for work last Friday, I laid on his couch perusing the Craigslist M4M postings to see what was interesting in Chicago's online gay sex scene. I just *happened* to read his posting, which was engaging / concise / smart / political, saying that he was looking for a good "match." I replied, not really thinking too much of it (in my experience, replying to ten Craigslist ads will net you about one response) -- but he responded quickly! We set up a date, and the rest is (barely) history. So to all the naysayers out there: you really can meet cute / smart boys online!

It's exciting!! I haven't found someone I've really been seriously interested in... gosh, years? Probably since undergrad, and those messy situations hardly count for much in the way of relationship experience. I don't want to get ahead of myself, but I think we really click in a great way and I'm looking forward to spending more QT with him. Sadly, though, he lives in Chicago, and I'm headed home to North Carolina this weekend -- and then soon thereafter I'm off to San Fran for the summer. We're talking about me flying out from SF to Chicago in June for a few days though :) Agghhh -- I can't effing wait!!

Okay. I got that off my chest :) I needed to share / gloat a bit. Hope everyone had a fab weekend!

xoxo

Trevor

P.S.And no, he's not Japanese - I've just been styling my hair like the blonde boy in the drawing lately (or trying to, anyways!).

del Toro to Direct "Hobbit" Films
By Trevor on April 26, 2008 1:22 PM | No Comments

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Salon.com's Andrew O'Hehir has an excellent short piece on why New Line Cinema and Producer Peter Jackson's decision to bring in famed Spanish director Guillermo del Toro to direct the two forthcoming Hobbit films is a bad one. O'Hehir notes that del Toro has, in the past, said that he hates Tolkien and the LOTR universe in interviews, and that his style is dramatically more dark / Gothic than Jackson-via-Tolkien's LOTR films (as seen in Pan's Labyrinth, one of my favorite films in recent memory).

Perhaps the money quote though, is when O'Hehir notes the trouble with making these two folks in the first place:

And where did the brilliant idea to make a "Hobbit" sequel -- a movie that will presumably cover the 60-year gap between the stories told in "The Hobbit" and in "The Lord of the Rings" -- actually come from? If you read all the back-and-forth stories closely, it becomes clear that New Line executive Mark Ordesky at some point told Peter Jackson that the studio had acquired rights to make both "The Hobbit" and a sequel, presumably based on Tolkien's fragmentary back-story information about what happens in his fictional universe between the two novels. A less kind way of saying this is that any "Hobbit" sequel won't really be a Tolkien adaptation; Jackson and Walsh and Boyens and del Toro and Ordesky and, I don't know, some guy in the Warner Bros. lunch room will be making the shit up.

Interesting!

This Pains Me to Say (Kylie vs. Madonna)...
By Trevor on April 25, 2008 10:37 PM | 2 Comments

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It's bad, folks. Real bad. I downloaded Hard Candy last night, excited after hearing "4 Minutes" and a few preview clips from the other songs on the album. Granted, there are maybe two songs on the album that are good other than "4 Minutes" ("Give it to Me" and "Beat Goes On" - though neither are spectacular, really). But that's about it. As my friend Maxime said, it sounds like something generic produced with tons of filler by any new bland pop artist. It's uninspired. It's painful at times to listen to. It's just bad.

THERE! I said it. Brings a tear to my eye. I even kind of liked American Life - but that was far more experimental at times than this tripe.

On the other hand! While Madonna's album is a stinker, Kylie Minogue's new work, X, is perhaps the best album I've listened to in years. I don't hate any of the tracks - I love them all! It's such a sexy, robust album. The production is perfect. It's pop purrfection. Highlights include: "Wow," "In My Arms" (hot video below!), "2 Hearts," and "Speakerphone" -- which has got to be the sickest track I've heard in a long time. I just makes you wanna spooj all over your computer. It's the kind of sexy, twisted track that Britney Spears recently tried for -- but generally didn't quite get there.

And can I just say -- Kylie's videos of late have been far superior to Madonna's efforts. "In My Arms," which you can see below, is youthful, sexy, and delectable -- three things that Madonna only wishes she could pull off anymore. But Madonna's so god damn uptight! Kylie's image, on the other hand, is much more carefree and spunky -- like the Madonna we knew many years ago. Sigh. God bless Kylie!

So word to the wise: skip Madonna, buy Kylie! You'll be much happier with your life.

xoxo

Trevor

Are Cops Ever Guilty?
By Trevor on April 25, 2008 9:38 AM | No Comments

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I've been thinking about this kind of thing a lot lately. Are cops ever found guilty of the violence they commit / inspire / impose? We of course have a word for this patterned behavior, "police brutality," but it seems to me that we need a new word for the spectacle of court cases against cops that inevitably find them not guilty for whatever crime they committed -- especially murder.

Now perhaps if they had embezzled some money they would be in some trouble, but the idea that they would use their authority to get away with murder -- part of the job, folks. I mean the logic is this: they're protecting the people, and sometimes in doing so they have to make split-second decisions in dangerous, high-stress situations that sometimes end up with innocent people being killed. This doesn't make them at fault, per se. It just comes with the territory.

But we know that this is bullshit. We see videos -- like this one of the police at UCLA repeatedly tasering a non-violent student -- of situations where it wasn't a split-second decision. There are many, many instances of calculated, drawn-out police brutality in which it does not seem clear that any given cop was faced with a hairline choice to fire or be fired upon. There's something else much more perverse going on here. It's a freakish combination of the kind of thing described in the Milgrim Experiments (in which participants repeatedly were complacent in their apparent violence against another participant) and a kind of masculinist, militarized police culture (obviously racism is also a *huge* component here as well).

We need a new word to describe this pattern of cases in which there's always a "thorough investigation" followed by a trial in which the dependents are always acquitted. The glove never fits. It's never their fault. They're just doing their job. It's morally repugnant.

North Carolina: Same-Sex Partners Okay in Hospital Rooms
By Trevor on April 23, 2008 2:52 PM | No Comments

Yay for gays in North Carolina!:

A new statewide rule will help ensure that same-sex partners and other loved ones will be treated the same as immediate family.

The rule adds a provision to the Patients' Bill of Rights, stating: "A patient has the right to designate visitors who shall receive the same visitation privileges as the patient’s immediate family members, regardless of whether the visitors are legally related to the patient." The right applies to hospitals statewide.

I've heard awful stories from several people about being in the hospital and their loved ones one being allowed inside the room. This change is fantastic because it doesn't limit the potential visitors to just lovers, but anyone that patient chooses. That's essential! We can imagine a very sad story of someone not being allowed to see their partner. But I think it's just as sad to imagine someone not being allowed to see their best friends.

Kudos to Ian Palmquist and others at EqualityNC for their work on this! Makes me a little bit homesick!

No More Statistics! EVER!
By Trevor on April 23, 2008 1:49 PM | No Comments

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I turned in my final paper in Statistics class today. Which means -- after a year of torture -- my required statistics coursework is OVER! FINISHED!

Which translate to: I never have to take another math class again in my life. Like, forever! Yea!!!

If I learned anything this year in statistiscs, it is that data can be sliced and dice to say WHATEVER the fuck you want it to. I suspected as much before, but now I know: don't trust numbers. Most of them are bullshit. Seperating the good science from the bad, it turns out, can be quite tricky. Many quantitative social scientists put of a barrier of smoke and mirrors (p-values, f/t/z-tests, etc) that make cutting through the BS like trying to read hieroglyphics.

In any case. I'm done! Now I can focus on what matters for my work. Phew!

Smell Yo' Dick
By Trevor on April 22, 2008 2:34 PM | No Comments



Such a charming love song! :)

Gay Men's Health Summit '08: Track on Risk / Prevention?
By Trevor on April 22, 2008 12:55 PM | No Comments

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Tony Valenzuela and I chatted it up last night about planning a workshop for the upcoming Gay Men's Health Summit, taking place October 17-21 in Seattle. Very quickly, we realized that our ideas were for something much bigger than a singular workshop -- but rather on a series of related sessions featuring smart / sex-positive content on gay men's health, risk and prevention.

So far, we've sketched out five workshops that we'd love to see scheduled for Seattle. There are many more important ideas out there. Can you add to this list? We'd love to have your input!!!

1) The Ins and Out of Transmission Risk: At two recent forums in Chicago and Detroit, I (Trevor) realized that many conversations on HIV / gay men's health get bogged down in bringing everyone to the same page on the actual data that exists on transmission / risk. This includes questions like: Is oral sex risky? Does taking ARVs reduce risk? Is superinfection likely / possible? And so on and so forth. This would be the first step in this track, just to try and get some of those questions out of the way.

2) Bareback Porn: There are many different "kinds" of workshops that might happen here, but some questions: How do we think about the proliferation of bareback porn over the past 10 years? What's the relationship between gay men's desires and porn consumption? What happens when most gay porn gets produced in a city like San Francisco -- where testing rates are high and serosorting appears to be an effective strategy for risk reduction -- and consumed in cities unlike San Francisco (where testing rates are low, thus making serosorting a disastrous strategy for risk reduction)?

3) Sex Panic! The Media and the Risk Narrative: MRSA and the "Superbug" New York Case provide two excellent case studies for 1) how public health / epidemiological research involving gay men is disseminated to the media and 2) How the media then reports / (mis)construes that data. Presentations of these case studies could prove useful springboards for how we might consider interventions to prevent another MRSA / Superbug panic.

4) Are HIV-related CBO's Actually Community Based Anymore?: Over the past 25 years, communities hit by HIV have worked hard to build robust institutions to help manage / treat / prevent HIV/AIDS. Along the way, organizations that began as community efforts have seemingly become detached public health institutions that view gay men simply as one "at risk population." Is it even possible to hold these organizations accountable for their work anymore, given this bureaucratic proliferation? Should we (as community members) expect that these organizations will produce the "best" prevention strategies?

5) Public Health Scholarship and the Risk Narrative: How can researchers design and execute studies that avoid the pitfalls described by a growing number of critical prevention studies scholars who have argued against the disease / risk model for public health research. This would be more of a "hands on" discussion for / by researchers who work with gay men.

6) Your Idea Here!

Really - feedback here would be super helpful! Are there speakers you'd like to see on this topic that might be headed to Seattle? Topics that should be covered? Let me know!

xoxox

Trevor

Bad Questions to ask a Tranny!
By Trevor on April 21, 2008 1:38 PM | 1 Comment

Calpernia Addams -- star of the TV show Transamerican Love Story -- is amazing. Here she goes through, at length, the various awful questions she's been asked as a transwoman over the years. She talks about name changes, questions about genitals, and more! Enjoy!!!!!

31 People Shot in Chicago Over Weekend
By Trevor on April 21, 2008 12:42 AM | No Comments

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Well I had a lovely weekend in Chicago, but apparently 31 people didn't! Oy vey! Case in point:

A 12-year-old and a 14-year-old were among those wounded. Authorities say the boys were shot about 11:30 p.m. Saturday in the 5300 block of West Madison. One of them was hurt critically.

As crews were responding to that shooting, a third person was shot, just around the corner. And just 40 minutes earlier, three men were shot, less than a block away.

Eesh.

A Wicked Evening!
By Trevor on April 19, 2008 1:17 PM | No Comments

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So last night Spencer and I headed to the Oriental Theatre here in Chicago to see Wicked: The Untold Story of the Wizard of Oz. What a delight! Stacey Ellen Wolf from UT-Austin was at UM a few weeks ago to give a talk on the queer elements of the musical, so I'm glad I had that in my pocket to chew on throughout the play. We both really enjoyed it! Though I would have rewritten the ending, but that's my major only beef really. The cast performances were really exquisite, particularly the actors playing Elphaba and Galinda. What a lovely night!

Now I've had the song Defying Gravity in my head all day! Loves it! I kind of wanna read the book!

"'Good' Sex? 'Bad' Sex?" Forum
By Trevor on April 19, 2008 3:43 AM | 6 Comments

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So,as I've mentioned, I'm here in Chicago for a few different reasons. One of them was to attend a forum organized by my friend Jim Pickett from the AIDS Foundation Chicago (and Lifelube blogger) called "'Good' Sex? 'Bad' Sex? Just What do Gay Men Want Anyways?" featuring my mentor / friend David Halperin. The panel was moderated by the hosts of the podcast "Feast of Fools," and also featured Michelle Morales (Northwestern University) and Gary Harper (DePaul University).

It's always good to get together to discuss frankly and openly gay men's sexualities, and to have difficult conversations on controversial topics like barebacking and crystal meth use / abuse. So this forum was invaluable to provide that kind of space. David's insights into public health culture, which has focused on gay men's "bad" behavior, is always needed and welcome.

Michelle Morales, who critically engages with the scientific literature that tends to view gay men as having poor measures of health behavior, was incredibly useful / important / refreshing. She is one of many scholars calling for research on gay men that resists the "gay men have higher rates of ____ (insert drug use / suicide / other bad behaviors here)." Thank God for people like her!

In general I thought the forum went well. I have a few hesitations to the dialogue, which I've posted in the comments over on the Lifelube blog. I suppose they might only make sense if you were there, so I won't regurgitate them here (I'm also a bit too tired / tipsy to make them understandable here at the moment).

But cheers to Jim and everyone who had a hand in organizing the event! Hurrah!

Nasty Replies from AIDS, Inc.
By Trevor on April 18, 2008 2:35 PM | 1 Comment

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So as I blogged about the other night, I attended a LIFE Detroit forum on HIV/AIDS and gay sex the other evening in Detroit. The organizers commented that several prominent Michigan AIDS organizations had committed to attend, but they didn't show. We were all very upset by this, and so when I arrived home, I sent an email to a few staff at the Midwest AIDS Prevention Project and the Michigan AIDS Partnership to express my dismay at their absence.

Well fuck if the Executive Director of the Midwest AIDS Partnership -- Craig Covey -- didn't fire back a nasty response as fast as he could type it out! In the words of my dear friend Nat who commented when he saw the reply: "Is everyone working in AIDS-prevention an embittered bigot?" Read for yourself:

We were not invited to any such event, nor did we commit to attend. I have never heard of something called LIFE Detroit. We do work in the city with at-risk people on a daily basis. This is at clubs, bars, on the street, in parks, and in community centers. Whatever you are trying to compensate for, I wish you luck. When you finish with your schooling someday, and you enter the real world, I hope you will have learned some tact and reality-based training. Emails like the one you sent do not show much promise.

What a jerk! I'm going to get back with LIFE Detroit to see if they have e-mails that contradict his claim that they were not informed of the forum -- and that they did not commit to attend. But this isn't the most egregious piece of his e-mail. The fact that I found a flyer for this event in the bathroom of Gold Coast suggests that it wasn't a particularly obscure event. And the fact that he doesn't know what LIFE Detroit is, is even more telling.

In any case, I may be pumping out a lengthier op-ed about my experiences with all this. It doesn't say much for the state of prevention politics in Michigan, sadly. Oh -- and here was my original e-mail to the staff members:

** Please forward to the appropriate staff members **

Dear Midwest AIDS Prevention Project,

My name is Trevor Hoppe and I'm a PhD candidate at the University of Michigan in Sociology and Women's Studies. I work on HIV Prevention issues and gay men's health.

I attended a meeting last night in Detroit organized by LIFE Detroit on HIV/AIDS prevention which included a fabulous discussion about the intricacies of unprotected sex and more generally the challenges of 21st century prevention tactics.

Your organization had committed to attending, and yet was notably absent -- as had other AIDS organizations in Michigan. This apparently is not a new phenomenon, and is just the latest in a string of instances in which your organization has committed to showing up but failed to do so.

This has the unhappy effect of making your organization seem out of touch with communities here in Detroit, and more generally to make community leaders feel less inclined to support your organization in future projects.

I would pressure you as a community leader here in the area to make a better effort to work in tandem with community-based organizations here, rather than appear as a hostile outsider. It does little to further your cause.

Trevor Hoppe
University of Michigan

Earthquake!
By Trevor on April 18, 2008 8:48 AM | 2 Comments

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So here I am in Chicago, having a fabulous time, when an earthquake hits! Magnitude 5.2 to be precise:

The tremors could be felt in downtown Chicago at the Tribune Tower, 435 N. Michigan Ave., for about 20 seconds beginning around 4:40 a.m. Numerous people across the Chicago area reported being awakened by rattling windows and shifting furniture.

Okay so it wasn't that dramatic. But how exciting!!!!

Whiny Neighbors
By Trevor on April 17, 2008 11:36 AM | 1 Comment

So I had some friends over for cocktails on Tuesday night to celebrate the last day of class! YEA! I can't believe an academic year is coming to a close. But here we are. Earlier in the day, I bought two bottles of champagne for my last social theory class, but apparently sociologists are not big drinks (granted, it was a 12 pm class), so I had an extra bottle. I invited folks over and we popped the bottle open and got to drinking.

Of course, being the hostess that I am, I had a fabulous mix of music on in the background, which *may* have included The Backstreet Boys -- ironically I promise! One of my many neighbors in my building left me this note under my door the next day. A message to everyone who thinks this a good idea: have some fucking balls and come down and knock on my door. Honestly! The 21st century is so weird. People can't even talk to each other anymore.

Madonna Vacuums, Too!
By Trevor on April 17, 2008 11:28 AM | No Comments

She's such a camera whore.

Sex and the City Spoiler!
By Trevor on April 17, 2008 11:22 AM | No Comments

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Warning: Spoiler of Sex and the City movie ahead!!!

Okay, so I really need to pack for Chicago, but a quick breeze through Perez yielded new info on the Sex and the City movie. Apparently Cynthia Nixon (the lovely lesbian who plays Miranda on the show) has blabbed that one of the characters DIES in the film. DIES! DIES!

DIES?

OMFG!

HIV Prevention Politics in Detroit
By Trevor on April 17, 2008 9:29 AM | No Comments

So while I was in Detroit partying my face off Friday night with Maxime / Nat / Andre, I happened upon a flyer in the bathroom of Gold Coast for a public meeting on HIV/AIDS the following Wednesday (last night). I ripped off the flyer from the bathroom wall and hurried over to see if I could coax any of my friends in their drunken states to commit to attending with me. Nat was interested, so we made a date.

The event was being organized by a group called The Leather Institute for Education (LIFE) Detroit (I love their motto: "Where leather learns"). Nat and I made the drive out to Diamond Jim's Saloon, a kind of country-western style gay bar in Detroit proper. It's always sort of depressing to drive into many of the areas surrounding Detroit -- bombed out buildings, abandoned strip malls, and trash litter the scenery. But Nat was thrilled when we took a detour and drove through "an African-American neighborhood." He's such a British tourist here!

We walked into Diamond Jim's and found a very friendly atmosphere. Seemed like a good place to have a meeting. Nat ordered a cocktail; still hungover from the previous night's festivities, I ordered a Sprite. We introduced ourselves to some folks (including Mister Michigan Leather!), and then took our seats for the meeting. It wasn't particularly well attended, but we weren't deterred. We wanted to get to know the people doing prevention work in Detroit, after all. Get out of the University and meet the real activists doing the hard work!

The conversation provoked by the panel was an interesting one. It was at times candid and at other times political, as any conversation about barebacking / gay sex can be. There was a particularly frustrating tendency for one of the panel members to conflate any unprotected sex with a desire to "bug chase," which just isn't factually grounded. But more broadly speaking I think we had a good dialogue. I spit out my latest question on the topic, which is this: What is the relationship between porn and desire production? And more pointedly, what is the impact of the shift in gay porn to it being primarily manufactured in San Francisco -- a city where unprotected sex and serosorting have become en vogue, and a city where this seems to be working because of the extremely high testing rates there? What happens when these kinds of fantasies get produced in that context, but consumed in a context (say, Detroit, where testing rates are very low) where serosorting would not be particularly good strategy for moderating new HIV infections (because so many men are of unknown status).

Perhaps more broadly speaking, there was a tendency to advocate for what gay men "ought" and "ought not" to be doing in their bedrooms. This seems to follow the trend in public health today to focus on individual behavior change, rather than structural changes (see the fabulous article "What Ails Public Health?" -- sadly behind a $$ firewall -- for more on this). This is not the only strategy for reducing new infections. For instance, we know that higher rates of regular testing by gay men limits the number of guys out there who are "question marks" -- as well as the number of guys who are newly infected and who don't know it (who are highly infectious in the first few months of their disease progression). Treatment is another tried and true prevention mechanism. Guys who are poz who take meds regularly can often manage to become undetectable in viral load, which makes it very difficult to transmit the virus. So expanding access to testing and treatment, in my mind, are two very effective and much less complicated methods for prevention folks.

Towards the end of the meeting, I was surprised when tensions in the prevention community there were revealed as a result of the absence of ALL of the major AIDS organizations at the meeting. Apparently, the Midwest AIDS Prevention Project and AIDS Partnership Michigan had both confirmed their participation at the event beforehand -- yet they were both noticeably absent. Several folks there commented that this was not the first time these organizations had "stood them up," and that these organizations were notorious for their lack of community participation in general. One man relayed a story of how a local leather organization raised big bucks for these groups at a fundraiser, and asked that a representative come down to the bar to pick the check up. A representative from one of the groups came down, demanded that they not pay cover for entry, grabbed the check and walked out. Now that's out of touch with your community!

I'm looking froward to continuing my participation at events like these in Detroit. There's apparently an AIDS conference in Detroit in November, although sadly the organizing committee did NOT put out a call for workshops -- opting instead for an invitation-only presentation model. That reflects the kind of out of touch, "insider" professionalized culture ("AIDS Inc") that these men were lamenting at the LIFE Detroit forum last night. Hopefully I can stir up some trouble here. I'm always good at doing that :)

Off to Chicago! Have a great weekend!

Chicago!
By Trevor on April 17, 2008 9:18 AM | No Comments

Okay, so things here are settling down a bit. So now that I'm mostly done with my schoolwork (just one 5-page paper due late next week), I'm off to Chicago for the weekend to see my friend Spencer from undergrad. The agenda:

Tonight: David Halperin will be giving a talk on gay men's health and his new book, What Do Gay Men Want? at the Center on Halsted as part of the "'Good' Sex? 'Bad' Sex? Just What Do Gay Men Want Anyways?" event this evening. Jim Pickett of Lifelube has been a key organizer of this.

Tomorrow: WICKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need I say more? I can't wait! Stacey Ellen Wolf from UT-Austin was here a few weeks ago giving a talk called "Defying Gravity: Queer Conventions in the Musical Wicked." It was really quite a fabulous talk on how typically romantic / hetero conventions in musical theatre (down to the kinds of chords used in songs) are used in Wicked to build the relationship between the two female leads. So I'm really excited to finally see this play!

Saturday: I'm torn about Saturday. Do I stay or do I go? My dear friend Maxime's friend will be visiting Ann Arbor from NYC, and they're going to go party it up in Detroit. So I'm tempted to come back for that. But I'm also tempted to stay in Chicago and party my face off with Spencer. Decisions, decisions!

Hope you have a good weekend, too! I'll be reporting back.

One Paper Down, One to Go!
By Trevor on April 15, 2008 3:03 AM | No Comments

Ugh. I just pumped out one of two final papers -- a lit review for my research project this summer on gay men's identities as bottoms. I'm so excited! Three months in San Francisco to interview bottoms. Should be a blast!

I'm Tired of Dealing With This Shit
By Trevor on April 13, 2008 10:46 PM | 4 Comments

Okay, so I've had this conversation below 8,525,834 times on Manhunt, Gay.com, Craigslist, and a host of other online gay communities. It's always the same. We talk. We exchange photos. We're both into each other. Then he asks if I'm "straight acting" or "masc." I don't know how to answer -- it's always a trap. You can only say yes -- any other answer is illegible / confusing / confrontational.

Tonight -- yet again -- I was chatting with this hottie that I've spoken to a few times before. The conversation started off a little weird - not sure if he was drunk or just unable to spell words accurately. In any case, it came to a screeching halt when he asked me if people would know I was gay if I didn't tell them. Like, duh!

It's not like I don't think guys have a right to be interested in certain kinds of guys. But it's the kind of bullshit dance that goes on over claiming being "straight acting" or "masculine." It's never an honest or open question; it's really just a script with an expected right answer. In this set-up, if I'm not "straight acting," I must be a drag queen. There is no middle ground to be found.

It's infuriating / demoralizing. Sometimes I stop and think, "I've dedicated my life to fighting for these assholes?" Ughhhh!

Here's the convo with "Samuel" (obviously not his real name):

Samuel: so

Samuel: I am gay

Samuel: but I am very masc

Samuel: how are you

Me: Well I'm gay. And I dunno, I'm somewhere in the happy middle.

Samuel: you know what I mean. people wouldn't know I was gay unless I told them

Samuel: would they know about you

Samuel: I mean

Me: Hah. Yes. They know.

Samuel: you know

Me: I haven't had to come out to anyone in years.

Samuel: ha ha. Not that. It is just that I don't like femme guys. Usually, if someone can tell you are gay without you tellin' them, the ou are femme

Samuel: that's all

Me: Well honestly if you're not into guys who are femme at all, we won't get along very well :)

Samuel: really

Samuel: are you a femme? yo didn't look like it

Samuel: but if you are

Samuel: you are right

Samuel: I don't like girly guys

Me: Yes you've made that perfectly clear

Samuel: well. are you girly???

Samuel: it's cool if you are

Samuel: maybe you can change my opinion

Me: lol - I don't even know what to say to you right now

Samuel: but

Samuel: I don't like guys who use words like

Samuel: fabolous

Samuel: lol

Samuel: and wear rhinestones

Me: Right. Well, like I said, I think it's clear we're not a match, then.

Samuel: cool man

Samuel: guess we just stop now then

Samuel: thanks for bein' honest

Samuel: later man

Me: Nite.

Samuel: hope you find what youa re lookin for

Detroit With the Boys!
By Trevor on April 12, 2008 3:56 AM | No Comments

So for the past few weeks, I have been scheming with my friends Maxime / Nat / Andre to make a trip to the Detroit area for a lovely night on the town. And indeed - what a night we had! We stopped first at SoHo in Ferndale for two cocktails, and then traveled to Detroit to see the dancers at Gold Coast. What a night! One of us (who shall remain nameless) might have unknowingly paid for a lap dance. Amazing!

The best part of the night came with the drive home, when I popped in janet (the album) and we got our dance on to Throb!

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Step it Up and Dance: The Most Homophobic Show on TV?
By Trevor on April 10, 2008 11:00 PM | 5 Comments | 1 TrackBack

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Okay, so I'm a bit biased - a friend from college was kicked off of the show tonight. But has anyone else noticed how fucked up the panel's comments are about the gay male dancers? "Honey, you need to butch it up - I don't care if you like boys, girls, rabbits -- whatever!" This from the bitch who works with Hannah Montana.

This show is ridiculously homophobic / sissyphobic. This show is clearly not being the best dancer. It's about being the most feminine woman and the most masculine man. This was embodied in this week's theme "Pimps and Prostitutes." How retrograde! What a fucked up limited view of dance. Dissapointing! Step it Up and Dance -- not even Elizabeth Berkley can save you!

I'm so sad that James was kicked off! He's such an amazing dancer! Robbed! He was robbed!

David Halperin on Gay Men's Health
By Trevor on April 9, 2008 3:14 PM | No Comments

In anticipation of his participation in the "Good Sex? Bad Sex? Just What do Gay Men Want Anyway?" event next Thursday (details in the article or via the link - but you should RSVP here) at the Center on Halsted in Chicago (which I'll be attending!!!), Chicago's gay rag, The Windy City Times, just published this interview with David on HIV prevention and Gay Men's Health. Check it out! And read his book if you haven't yet!

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Windy City Times
by Amy Wooten
2008-04-09

Gay men have a lot to talk about, according to author David Halperin.

Halperin, author of What Do Gay men Want?, will be a guest at Project CRYSP's upcoming community forum on gay men's health, “'Good' Sex? ‘Bad' Sex? Just What Do Gay men Want Anyway?” The forum, which will also feature panel experts such as DePaul University's Dr. Gary Harper and Northwestern University's Dr. Michele Morales, will take place Thurs., April 17, 6 p.m., at the Center on Halsted, 3656 N. Halsted.

The debate will revolve around gay men's relation to sex and risk, and will touch on issues such as barebacking, the clichés that are still used to attempt to understand gay men and much more.

Windy City Times: Are there a lot of conversations that we aren't having when it comes to gay men's health?

David Halperin: I think there aren't enough of them. Part of it is the need to approach gay men's health in a holistic way that isn't centered just on disease or on various kinds of social problems such as alcohol abuse or domestic violence or HIV prevention—so, the need to look at gay men's health and gay men's sexual health, in particular, in a larger contest.

WCT: So, have we been taking the wrong approach?

DH: No, I think it's natural that we should be concerned about these things. But, the other conversation that we need to have that we haven't been having enough of is are we really going to stop using condoms? If we are going to stop using condoms, or if we're going to use them less, and if we are trying to protect ourselves from infection of HIV by other means—by means that don't involve using condoms—what exactly are those means? How can we make sure we pursue them intelligently so that we don't fail at preventing the spread of HIV?

WCT: Why is the community stopping condom use, after years of pounding it in our heads that this is what you need to do?

DH: A lot of studies indicate that condom use is falling off. Some places, including the San Francisco Department of Public Health, have been promoting alternatives to the use of condoms for HIV prevention.

WCT: What are some of those alternatives?

DH: Things like partner selection, which is often called serosorting. The notion that one could perhaps avoid these condoms if one is having sex with someone who has the same HIV serology status as oneself. It's a technique that works better for HIV-positive men than HIV-negative men, since they are the ones who actually know what their HIV status is. Someone who tells you he is HIV-positive is probably not lying to you. But if we were to put more emphasis on sero sorting and partner selection, and less emphasis on condoms, certainly we need to talk about that and we need to try to make sure HIV risk reduction practices don't inadvertently produce risk increases.

WCT: Are these strategies new?

DH: They aren't all that new. They've been going on for 10 years, at least, but they are spreading out more and perhaps being used a little less deliberately than they should be.

WCT: The fact that someone like me thinks it's fairly new—is that because there has been so much emphasis on condom use?

DH: I think that's right. The CDC [ Centers for Disease Control and Prevention ] has not been promoting sero-sorting. The CDC has been promoting condom use and most HIV/AIDS prevention organizations promote condoms. But there has been relatively little attempt to try to figure out what gay men are actually doing on the ground and to try to adapt health initiatives to what people are actually doing, rather than do it to get gay men to adapt to health initiatives. Another reason you might not know about this is a lot of this has been taking place in HIV-positive communities.

WCT: Is another one of the issues that health officials have not tried to figure out what gay men really want?

DH: Right. There is a huge amount of energy being devoted to figuring out what gay men really want, but it's usually in the key of disease or impaired psychology. So the notion is, “Oh, we really have to figure out what gay men want because we have to explain why they are behaving so badly and so self-destructively—why they are doing these terrible things? What on earth is going on in their little minds? What explains this weird, self-destructive, harmful behavior? Why would a normal person ever act that way?

WCT: So it's very negative.

DH: It's very negative. It posits that there is some irrational behavior going on, and it tries to imply a medical reason, which is usually some form of impairment to explain this “irrational” behavior. Those explanations can range from the supposedly gay-friendly one like post-traumatic stress disorder or grief mourning, and so forth, all the way to lack of self-control, various psychological deficits.

WCT: So, they are just using clichés about gay men?

DH: Right. Exactly. What I've been disturbed by is the way the topic of prevention revives a lot of old-fashioned medical thinking about male homosexuality, and incidentally, about homosexuality more generally because some of the times, these psychological clichés about gay men are unthinkingly extended to all queer people, even lesbians. So that's very much a problem, it seems to me. But I'm also concerned about the fact that what this does is that it reminds us that the inner life of homosexuality is something that we probably would be better not looking into because we won't like what we'll find and it's going to be bad and it's going to be used against us. Whereas I'm interested in finding non-psychological ways to talk about the inner life of male homosexuality so that the whole category of gay subjectivity doesn't have to be bracketed in favor of some truly political notion of gay identity.

WCT: What are your suggestions for creative, non-judgmental ways that we can hinder the spread of HIV?

DH: The book that I wrote is really about the political consequences of different styles of thinking. So, that's what I do. I'm not an expert on the HIV field. I'm more of a social theorist. So, I try to do this to clear away a lot of these tendencies so people really doing the hard work of prevention on the ground are able to do the positive and practical work that they're doing. They are the ones who should really be talking about the positive things that we can do. I can observe some of the ways that HIV-positive communities have responded, like POZ magazine, and in the old days, Diseased Pariah News, that were designed to claim back a voice for HIV-positive people that would not simply allow HIV-positive people to be spoken about in sympathetic or pitying tones by others. And we can talk about the particular initiatives that are being made here and there to try to do HIV prevention in ways that assume that sex is a great thing—that people should have more sex, rather than less sex. This is one of the things that Chicago is doing with Project CRYSP and LifeLube [ LifeLube.org ] . That's a stellar example. Things have been tried in similar ways elsewhere in the world in Australia, in France. It's a question, for me, anyway, not so much of prescribing these changes that should happen, so much as noticing the creative things that people have already invented here and there, and trying to champion them.

WCT: With the hopes that more cities will do this, right?

DH: Yes. It would also be good to have some legal changes. I mean, in the state of Michigan, where I live, if you're HIV-positive, in theory, it's against the law to have sex with anybody, no matter how safely and what kind of sex, without announcing to them your HIV status in advance. That's a recipe for ensuring people won't get tested. It would be good to also get the law off our backs, and there are a lot of states that have similar laws. I think it's more the rule than the exception.

… If we had in this country a national HIV prevention strategy, which we have never had, to our enduring disgrace, it might be possible to address some of these policy issues in a coherent way at a national level. Obviously, states have to enact their own laws, but the federal government, for example, nonetheless, knows how to get states to enact speeding laws when it wants to. [ Such as ] the former 55 mile-per-hour speed limit by denying a state's highway funding if they don't pass them. Similarly, with drinking age.

WCT: So, why not do something like that?

DH: Why not do something positive for HIV prevention that would carry across a national level? This is not something that's on the books. There has never been a major push in the U.S. by the government to get gay men, sex workers, IDUs [ intravenous drug users ] , various other communities—there's never been any move to empower them to help themselves. These groups of people have formed collective responses in the teeth of federal indifference or hostility.

Onion: Mead Releases Grad-School Lined Notebook
By Trevor on April 9, 2008 2:44 AM | No Comments

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Hilarious!:

"We here at Mead understand that as students get older and wiser, they need notebooks with increasingly narrow lines," Mead CEO John A. Luke told reporters. "In college, people are at a stage in their education where they require 9/32nds of an inch between each line, which is why we make college-ruled notebooks. But I think we can all agree that grad school is a completely different world than college—a world where 9/32nds of an inch is simply too much room."

Loves it!

Beyond Masculinity -- Almost There!
By Trevor on April 9, 2008 2:27 AM | No Comments

So I can't share anything too revealing just yet, but here's a screenshot from the template I've been slaving away at generating for the site. You'll see that this is of Hammad Ahmed's essay "Gays and the Gaze," which is quite fabulous. Thoughts on the design??


Out "Top 50 Most Influential Gay Men.... and okay women too"
By Trevor on April 7, 2008 5:27 AM | No Comments

The cover speaks for itself. This of course despite the fact that Ellen is #1 on their list. And who uses the term "gay women" anymore? Just give it up, Out. You're a magazine for gay men.

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CNN Front Page: "Geisha Guys"
By Trevor on April 7, 2008 5:20 AM | 1 Comment

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It must be a slow news morning! But hey, I'm not complaining. The front page of CNN has this beautiful man featured (Yunosuke - who only goes by one name of course), in a story about the growing trend of male escorts in Japan who charge anywhere from $1000 to $50K for their company. The article is embarrassingly short for anything that should be posted on the front page, but still, an interesting choice for CNN! And phew - what a hottie!

"Weak at the Knees" - Another Aussie Example
By Trevor on April 6, 2008 4:57 PM | No Comments

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And State funded, by the way! The message: "When we play, we live the sensation. By using condoms and testing regularly for STIs, and remembering that the more partners we have the more often we should be tested, we reduce our risk so we can give into the moment."

Sexxxy!

"Staying HIV Negative" - Australian Campaign
By Trevor on April 6, 2008 4:37 PM | No Comments

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After I posted a photo of a quite sexy Brazilian prevention campaign here a few days ago, my friend Michael -- who is a wonderful researcher from Australia -- sent over a few examples from Australia. They were all provocative, but I thought this one in particular was quite striking for its use of interactive media on the internet - and for its thoughtful design.

Check out the image below. It's a screenshot I took of the page featuring "Michael's Story" -- which includes several really interesting sections -- "Panic Attacks"; "Mega Slut"; "Jewish & Gay"; "Euphoria"; etc. What I like here is the complexity allowed for in gay men's lives. The fact that two of the predominant themes -- religion and promiscuity -- can be featured alongside each other without any seeming contradiction. It's really quite an interesting site -- even if it had nothing to do with HIV! Ch-check it out!

What What (In the Butt)
By Trevor on April 5, 2008 12:58 PM | No Comments

Okay, so I don't know if anyone saw the South Park episode the other night spoofing on Youtube, but I had *no idea* this song was REAL! Amazing! *A-m-a-z-i-n-g*!

Michael Weinstein: Stop AIDS Vaccine Research
By Trevor on April 4, 2008 7:44 AM | No Comments

Weinstein (President of AIDS Healthcare Foundation) is such a douche. He's always been a sensationalist, and here he is playing his usual game. His logic this time: we haven't found a vaccine in 20 years, therefore we should give up and instead fund exclusively treatment. As if funding both vaccine research and treatment were mutually exclusive.

Weinstein is an enemy of gay men -- he always has been. He has stoked the fears around HIV and "dangerous" gay male sexuality for decades now. See, for instance, this quote he gave to the Bay Area Reporter last year in support of AHF's lawsuit against Pfizer to try to get Viagra off the market:

"We estimate that a majority of new infections in this country are related to the use of crystal meth, and the majority of crystal meth users are also using Viagra." He called AHF "a victim of Pfizer's irresponsibility."

Hogwash! The man's a sensationalist with no science to back up his ludicrous claims. This editorial below, on vaccine research, is part and parcel of the same hyped up agenda. When will his reign end?

Stop AIDS vaccine research
The U.S. should focus its funds on providing treatment to people in need.

By Michael Weinstein

April 4, 2008

As the catalyst for the call to halt U.S. government funding of AIDS vaccine research, I was somewhat dismayed by The Times' recent editorial, "Revamping AIDS vaccine research," (pasted below this op-ed) which took issue with the AIDS Healthcare Foundation's position without fully understanding it.

Our position is this: In light of over 20 years of failed AIDS vaccine research on which billions of dollars of U.S. taxpayer money have been spent, we believe it is simply unconscionable for the U.S. government to continue such wasteful funding while millions worldwide die for want of access to the AIDS research breakthrough that occurred more than 10 years ago -- life-saving antiretroviral treatment.

There are not just two or three AIDS vaccine candidates that have failed. Every AIDS vaccine candidate to date has failed. Leading scientists, including Nobel Prize winner Dr. David Baltimore, have even gone so far as noting that we are no closer to the discovery of an AIDS vaccine today than we were 20 years ago.

In fact, not only have all the AIDS vaccine candidates failed, the latest was hurriedly pulled from clinical trial after the vaccine was found to actually put people at a significantly increased risk of contracting HIV. Twenty-seven years into the AIDS pandemic, countless billions in taxpayer (and private) vaccine funding later, and our leading researchers can't even meet the most fundamental tenet to "do no harm."

Meanwhile, as AIDS vaccine candidates repeatedly fail, consensus continues to build that successful antiretroviral treatment offers a vaccine-like effect -- rendering most HIV-positive people noninfectious. This treatment offers a far more enduring benefit than anything that AIDS vaccine research has or will offer. At the same, more than 33 million people worldwide continue to live with -- and die from -- HIV/AIDS. Barely 2 million in the developing world have access to the treatment that we know works to save lives -- and reduces the likelihood of transmission.

The Times' editorial mentions the billions the U.S. gives to AIDS research and relief. While at first blush this seems like a generous amount, this funding provides treatment and support services for only a small fraction of the people worldwide living with HIV/AIDS who may be in need. With lifesaving antiretroviral treatment costing as little as $300 per patient per year in Africa and elsewhere in the developing world, the $700 million or so the U.S. currently spends annually on fruitless AIDS vaccine research could save an additional 2.3 million lives around the world each year. As successful antiretroviral treatment renders people less infectious, it would also help break the chain of new infections globally and bring the number of new infections down.

To be clear, what the AIDS Healthcare Foundation called for last week is a halt to U.S. government funding of AIDS vaccine research. Private donors and foundations may continue to fund whatever vaccine research they may deem appropriate. Regarding The Times' support for the NIH getting back to basic research (which the NIH appeared to commit to last week), Times' readers -- and writers -- should know that the NIH already funds basic AIDS research to the tune of several hundred million dollars per year, separate from its $700 million annually in AIDS vaccine research funding.

Early next week, the AIDS Healthcare Foundation will call on congressional leaders in Washington to demand a Government Accountability Office report on the history and current state of AIDS vaccine research. It is our hope that through the lens of dispassionate third-party investigators, a clearer light will be shone on the folly of government largesse continuing to blindly fund AIDS vaccine research.

Currently, the AIDS vaccine establishment continues its taxpayer-funded, repeatedly unsuccessful search for a preventive AIDS vaccine while an alternative many have seen work on multiple levels -- successful antiretroviral treatment as both treatment and prevention -- goes unchampioned.

This is why the AIDS Healthcare Foundation believes that it is time to pull the plug on U.S. taxpayer financing of the search for a vaccine, and leave it to private donors to back what has been and continues to appear to be a fruitless goal. To continue to invest hundreds of millions of dollars in a government-funded search for an AIDS vaccine in the vain hope of success someday while millions worldwide suffer and die is simply unacceptable when other currently available strategies offer practical -- and effective -- alternatives.

Michael Weinstein is president of the AIDS Healthcare Foundation

Letterman Calls Pregnant Transman "Androgynous Freak Show"
By Trevor on April 4, 2008 1:39 AM | 1 Comment

C'mon David. We expect better from you! But really - Thomas Beatie is everywhere! As I've mentioned before, this is particularly curious since he's far from the first transguy to be pregnant. What's up with this case? Why has it taken the media by storm? Also, below David's clip is a piece from Thomas's appearance on Oprah today. Kudos to Beatie for resisting Oprah's pushy "born in the wrong body" narrative!

Madonna's New Video - 4 Minutes!
By Trevor on April 4, 2008 1:31 AM | No Comments

I'm such a homo - I can't resist! The song's a bit generic, but the video's kind of hot!

How Brazil Does HIV Prevention
By Trevor on April 3, 2008 12:59 AM | No Comments

Now, *this* is how you do prevention. The message: "Do whatever you want, but do it with a condom." And this is from the *government* of Brazil. Not some radical gay group or sex-positive community organization. The government. Puts the bullshit we deal with in the US in some perspective. It's sexxxy!

Thanks to Lifelube for the pic!

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Gay.com Conversations on Race: Part Two
By Trevor on April 2, 2008 9:45 PM | 3 Comments

So as I blogged about yesterday, my friend Nat had an interesting conversation on Gay.com about race. See that blog post for context. This bit picks up where yesterday's except left off, in which the two talk about this idea of "special privileges." Paris Hilton. SAT scores. It's all there. Enjoy! Or... you know, get pissed off!

"Joe": that's a double standard. if the color of ur skins doesn't disqualify you for things, then it can't qualify you for things either, unless you are intellectually dead

"Anthony": no, it's a recognition that the reason whites in America predominantly hold power and wealth and that blacks predominantly have scarce income and political power is that a tradition of stigmatising social attitudes has created this unjust social hierarchy

"Anthony": social equality is not simply about treating everyone as equals

"Joe": nope...i don't by it...i think it's looking for excuses...and ultimately hurts the black community more than it helps it

"Anthony": it is more about correcting for past errors in treating everyone as equals and *then* treating them all as equals

"Joe": if you give special priviledges to blacks just because they are black, even if they 'succeed', people will be suspect of their true ability

"Anthony": so why do white people hold the vast majority of the power and wealth in this country?

"Joe": because too many black people have been told they are just entitled so don't do what they need to to succeed

"Anthony": "true ability" as measured by what? SATs?

"Joe": i have several black friends who are doing just fine

"Anthony": Gosh, and you *really* do believe that?

"Joe": no need for special priviledges. just honest work

"Anthony": I'm doing just fine, but I was very, very, lucky

"Anthony": no

"Joe": yes

"Anthony": the wealthiest whites in this country have to do no work at all - let alone *hard* work. bush. clinton. kennedy. hilton

"Joe": and i am sure there are wealthy blacks in the same boat. and there are poor whites

"Anthony": the proportion of the black population that is below the poverty line is much much grater than that of the white population

"Joe": and all the programs to 'help' have actually hurt by keeping many of them in poverty because they have the sense of entitlement and are taught not to do what they themselves need to do to get out of that state

"Anthony": perhaps other programs need to be identified that avoid that by-product

"Joe": or perhaps people just need to take some personal responsibility and realize because one short-sighted person called him a nigga, that's not reason to blame society for his ills, but to see that that person is ignorant and move on. i've been called all sorts of things. i don't blame that for my problems

"Anthony": it has nothing to do with "my problems." as i mentioned, I am very very lucky

"Joe": but that fact that u take such offense at one person saying it to you in a gay chatroom and expect the whole room to rally behind you because of it is very telling

"Anthony": but i am still the object of stigma on account of the colour of my skin

"Joe": i have heard plenty of insults flung around the room here from that one guy

"Anthony": this was more than just any insult

"Joe": one guy calling you a nigga doesn't a societal stigma make. but the point is, HE has the problem. i would say his view is not the majority view. ESPECIALLY in a gay chatroom

"Anthony": it tells me about the social acceptance of racial aversion, segregation, and insults in MI

"Anthony": perhaps

"Joe": no, it tells you one mans view

Thomas Beatie - Pregnant Transman - to be on Oprah
By Trevor on April 2, 2008 3:19 PM | No Comments

Tune in Thursday - it should be interesting! Oprah will be hosting Thomas Beatie, a transman from the Northwest who has become pregnant through artificial insemination. This isn't anything terribly new. Matt Rice (former partner of radical sex activist / theorist / author Pat Califia) gave birth a few years ago. Does it mean transmen are more "legible" now, that this is receiving so much fanfare? Or is it because Matt Rice and Pat Califia were so decidedly unmedia-friendly? In any case, I'm sure Oprah will make a fool of herself on Thursday. Check it out.

Gay.com Conversations on Race: Part One
By Trevor on April 1, 2008 3:04 AM | No Comments

A funny thing happened to a friend of mine (I'll call him Anthony for the purposes of this series) while he was chatting on gay.com the other evening. Well, not so funny actually. Anthony, a gay black graduate student here at UM, sent a private message to a white guy online, who promptly responded "No niggers tonight." As you would expect, he was appalled. He promptly informed the main chat room of this transgression, only to be met with mostly silence.

But he did get into a heated private conversation with another gay.com'er about race and racism in America that I found fascinating. He sent me a copy of their three hour back-and-forth. There were several points of contention, but they began with a primary point of disagreement in US race politics: is racism still alive anymore, or are historically disenfranchised groups just inclined to whine? You've heard this in many different iterations, whether it be about black folks, women, or gays and lesbians.

What I like about the conversation -- which I've excepted part of below -- is that, to me, the man that Anthony was chatting with represents to me the "Average Joe" kind of (white?) American perspective. For this reason, I found the dialogue incredibly useful for thinking about how Americans think about race. Over the next few days, I'll be posting different pieces of this conversation. I hope you find them as interesting as I did!

We'll begin with, well, the beginning. I've changed both of their screennames to simply "Anthony" and "Joe." I've only edited for length, such that two or more successive IM's from the same user were condensed into one IM. Read on!

"Joe": nowadays, yes - i agree there were definitely times in the past when things were horrible for blacks, but if ur still feeling all entitled cause your great-great-great grandfather was a slave, you've got a problem. people call me names too for all sorts of reasons. it's their problem, not mine - if they're that ignorant, why let it bother me

"Anthony": there is still a social stigma that attaches to black people in this country

"Joe": i don't buy it

"Anthony": really?

"Joe": i think there are stigmas against just about any group. i can show u discrimination against white males RAMPANT in media today. everyone gets picked on. it's like... life

"Anthony": hmmm, there are traditions of historical and entrenched discrimination. so, if there *is* discrimination today against white males, it is not as bad as discrimination against women or black people

"Joe": you'd say it isn't is bad now? or it's not as bad because it hasn't gone on as long?

"Anthony": not because it hasnt gone on as long, but rather because it hasn't previously been enshrined in law, and because it doesn't sit as a default preference (be that conscious or unconscious) for the majority of people in society

"Joe": so the fact that is USED to be in law, means it must still be happening today?

"Anthony": no

"Joe": then why even bring up that point?

"Anthony": law gave a special authority to the discrimination

"Joe": GAVE, not GIVES. yes, it used to be an issue, we are talking today

"Anthony": and the law developed social attitudes that persist today, even after the laws have been repealed

"Joe": prove it. that fact that blacks used to be slaves in NO WAY affects how i look at blacks today

"Anthony": not talking about *you*

"Joe": i would apply the same to people in general, aside from some on the fringe

"Anthony": An example of residual stigma: No one blinks at a news report stating that a 23 year old black man was arrested for murder. But a broadcast that began "A 55 year old Jew, David Goldstein, was arrested for stock fraud today" would be condemned as gratuitously stirring up anti-Semitism.

"Joe": i've heard it said a 23 year old white man was arrested for whatever and felt no offense whatsoever

"Anthony": indeed

"Joe": so i think it's a problem of oversensitivity in many cases

"Anthony": really?

"Joe": yup

"Anthony": take another case from a friend of mine. Consider this story. One late night in 2007 I was driving in Detroit when my oil light came on. I pulled into the nearest gas station to investigate the problem when a young black man approached me to offer help. "Don't worry, I'm not here to rob you," he said, holding up his hands, palms flat at face level, gesturing his innocence. "Do you need some help with your car?" I thanked him for his offer and told him I wasn't sure how much oil I needed. He read the dipstick, told me my car needed two quarts, and kindly offered to do the job without asking for money. From the look on his face when I paid him anyway, it was clear that he needed the cash. This encounter illustrates the public standing of racial stereotypes as default images that influence the interactions of black and white strangers in unstructured settings, even when both parties are prepared to disavow them. A little ritual must be performed to confirm that both parties do disavow the application of the stigma to one of the parties, so that cooperative interactions may proceed. interactions may proceed.

"Joe": look, when i see 2 black guys offended when a white calls says nigger, but they call themselves nigger all the time, then i see the black guys accentuating the difference of race more than the white

"Anthony": perhaps they are

"Joe": the same as the mayor's advisors worried that there won't be enough blacks on his jury

"Anthony": i don't accept to be called a nigger by anyone

"Joe": and the black community complaining that is it a chinese sculptor and not a black man designing the large MLK statue

"Anthony": you don't recall the injustices wrought by all-white juries in the Deep South?

"Joe": again, ur talking in the past. give me a recent example and not just a fringe case

"Anthony": You don't think that we should take opportunities to promote black artists (who are generally undervalued)

"Joe": i think MLK's legacy was that people should not be judged by the color of their skin so by saying only a black person can design the sculpture of MLK, it goes directly against all he fought for. just like u shouldn't discriminate against someone who is black, i think it is just as much an injustice to choose someone just because he's black. because it further separates into colors. you can't say you want to be treated the same despite your color and then say you want special privileges because of your color

Tune in next week for more! Well, okay, not next week. But like, maybe tomorrow?